By now you’ve all heard the sad news about the apparent drug overdose of DJ AM. But you might not be aware that the he was working on a reality show about drug abuse for MTV. In this recent interview with MTV news to promote the show, he talked about how he bought a crack pipe to to show how easy it is.

He said, “I bought a crack pipe … that was my drug of choice. And I walked out and I’m holding it … and then I realized after I was holding it that my palms were sweaty and I was like, ‘Wait a minute, this is not smart for me to be holding this.’”

DJ AM was found dead in his apartment Friday night of an apparent drug overdose. Sunday law enforcement revealed they found a bag of crack by his body.