A newly sober, and strangely adult sounding Lily Allen told the Daily Telegraph that she was so distraught after having a miscarriage last year that she checked herself into psych ward to work through it.

“I stayed there for three weeks. I was really depressed because of the miscarriage and I’d kind of lost the plot a bit. It was quite a nasty time. Actually, it was quite nice being in there. No one could get to me; no one knew I was there.”

“It’s pretty hard to talk about it, but that Christmas I was at home with my family and Ed, and I wasn’t drinking, and I just sat there knowing I was having a baby and I was in absolute bliss. Sitting round eating turkey, playing games, watching everybody getting drunk, and being really excited knowing this time next year I was going to have a baby…And I haven’t.”

In case you are unsure of how “Ed” is…Lily is referring Ed Simons from The Chemical Brothers, to the S.O.B. that dumped her after she lost his baby.