It happens to so many women, but for some reason we never really want to talk about it. It’s a sadness that you think no one can understand, not even you partner. It’s public knowledge know that Beyonce had a miscarriage before baby Blue Ivy was born thanks to some lyrics in Jay-Z’s song Glory. But up until know B hasn’t talked about it at all.
“About two years ago, I was pregnant for the first time,” the 31-year-old said in Life Is But a Dream, her HBO documentary airing next month, an advance copy of which was viewed by various outlets.
“And I heard the heartbeat, which was the most beautiful music I ever heard in my life. I picked out names. I envisioned what my child would look like…I was feeling very maternal,” she said, adding that something went wrong early in the pregnancy, which she only found out during a routine doctor’s appointment. I flew back to New York to get my checkup—and no heartbeat. Literally the week before I went to the doctor, everything was fine, but there was no heartbeat.”"I went into the studio and wrote the saddest song I’ve ever written in my life. And it was actually the first song I wrote for my album,” she said, albeit not naming the track or even if it made the final cut. “And it was the best form of therapy for me, because it was the saddest thing I’ve ever been through.”